WuWu-ish

Effort does not necessarily produce result.............this is what I learnt..........am sulking now..........wuwuwuwuwu........fuck........... have spent 2 fcking days researching and producing NUTS..........heck i'm not even liking what i'm doing.........how am I suppose to see myself doing this for the rest of my life??? Fuck la.........fuck..................................................................................... Give me strength?? It only gave me mood swings and the sense of hopelessness.......... how how how? Wtf, i'm becoming whiny..........I blame myself.........i am sorry..........sorry for taking the wrong studies and career path......would definately enjoy cooking or maybe marketing..................fuck fuck fuck....................I think I will need to go to Ms Read soon..........any goers? (pls dun expect a sad guy to spend you....have some pity you vultures!)

~Ms Read Lemon Murange Pie thingies~

~Ms Read Brownie with Ice-Cream laDuh~

Give Me Strength

Enough of resting, Enough of thinking, Enough of avoiding,

Sick of evading, Sick of reflecting, Sick of procrastinating,

Start moving, Start smiling, Start Living,

Tomorrow is another day, Tomorrow is a different day, Tomorrow is a new day,

I will be another me, I will be a different me, I will be a new me,

Give me courage, Give me hope, Give me faith,

Give me light, Give me directions, Give me motivation

Give Me Strength

Me day NOT-So bored so DVD to Cooks to Means

Woke up today at approximately 1 pm...nothing to do for today but stomach was feeling hungry. Went to the kitchen and no tapau'ed' food on the dining table. Parents are already out.....so it's either to drive out and buy me some food...or just cook it myself.......It's a dilemma....i'm equally lazy to drive out or to cook and wash the dishes....At the end, i decided to cook.....being so semangated, opened the fridge and NONE........*sweats*..............ended up cooking maggie noodles with egg...which i did not finish.

Though lunch was bad (it's not my cooking but rather the bad recipe maggie have for it's seasoning =P) , my day was good because i get to watch "FlashPoint". It's a movie i've wanted to watch months ago. Basically about the usual undercover cop dealing with mob-traids and yada yada. What catches my attention is who's starring in it. Firsly, it's Donnie Yen....a fcking martial artist with super-cool stunts. He's kinda old because i remember watching him in the "Chan Chen" series when i was really young....but his body was superb....real 6-pax and killer chest! I pity the extras and stunt ppl who got SERIOUSLY beaten up by him in the making of the movie. The co-star of the movie is Louise Koo.....if u really know me, then you would have known that this guy is my all-time fav movie actor. He kinda dissapointed me in this movie though....he did not portray his role well as an undercover cop and got really overshadowed by Donnie Yen. Big contrast as compared to his previous movie (can't remember the title but he acted as a drug-addict). After the movie, i decided to walk my dog, went for a jog and washed my bumble-satria . Parents then came home asking me to attend some dinner gathering with "Shaun-where's-your-gf" aunties and uncles at some seafood restaurant. Even though i would want to see and be interrogated by my "beloved" aunties and uncles my natural reflexes would make me refuse the offer. Plus, I will only ended up eating the usual "Ku lou yuk", stir fried vegetables and some cooked toufu since I don't eat seafood. Come on, it's only logic I skip this gathering. lols. Fortunately my parents are rather understanding (or given up hope) and thus allowed me to stay home.

When i finished washing the car, it's time to get dinner. I didn't feel like eating chinese food but can't afford western either. So, I decided to cook myself a light meal instead. Knowing my fridge was empty, I drove to Carrefour and bought a can of .......oh wait, I can't disclose what I bought because I wanna brag about my cooking later. HAHA ~Fastforwardzeeeeeeepppp~~~

Anyway, when I reached home i layed all the raw raw raw material i bought and started preparing. Firstly I grind and minced the pork and chicken I bought and made myself ham and sausages. Ok this is getting lame and i shall spill the beans. My dinner for the night was baguette with ham, sausages and minestrone soup. My sophisticated cooking refers to the heating up of the above. As "ciplak" my cooking maybe, I did do something to categorized my activity as cooking. I turned my baguette into GARLICCCC Baguette a.k.a garlic bread~~~. It may sound cheesy but i'll let the pics do the talking.

~Beware. This is not for the hungry peruts~

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raw material 1) Black pepper Ham


raw material 2) Pizza Cocktail Sausages

raw material 3) Butter & Garlic & Salt

raw material 4) Baguette with garlic spread

raw material 5) Campbell Minestrone

Campbell Minestrone Soup

Garlic Baguette

Roasted Ham & Sausages

Dinner on 14th October 2007

If all taste fail...there's always my ever-loyal...................

Mr. Tobasco-san!

Gadget Reality....Gadget Tragedy

The phone's finally out........previously it was rumoured as the HTC Kaiser..........the replacement for Dopod 838 pro.....now it is finally launched in Msia......as......HTC Tytn II. Out of curiousity, I went to Sunway Pyramid digital centre to check it out and 'molest' the unit. It is a pure beauty...genuinely solid and functions to perfection. Ok fine, I am exaggerating but it's a fcking beauty. Chat with the store personnel and he agreed that it beats that thing....that nokia....that N95 everyone's whoo haa'ing' about the past few months. Do some research people!! This phone definately kicks N95's butt bigtime!!!! Except for the camera though..........hell, if u want good pix then buy the Sony Ericson K850i...(it kicks N95's camera butt too =P)... So what now? Harsh harsh reality.........chinese has this saying of "yat fan chien yat fan foh" wtf......meaning nothing's free in reality.........excellent specifications leads to excellent high prices......the price is Rm3099 for the basic set. With the additional accessories like the 2 gb memory card, screen protector and etc...it'll cost around Rm3200..........................................................................................................................................................

It hurts....it really hurts waiting for something you can never get.............And it''s only October this month.....not even Santa can help....not that i have been a goodboy anyways........

Insomnia...or not?

It's 2.36 a.m and i still can't sleep. Classes are resuming in 10 hours and 23 minutes. Why am I still awake? Why can't I sleep? Nescafe....you are not at fault, I will never blame you, You are equivalent to blood relative to me haha. Insomnia.....I don't think so. The worst part of not being able to sleep is the tendency to start thinking rubbish. Well, it's not really rubbish....it's probably things that I should only worry in the future.

Have been fretting over the purpose of my life recently....someone told me it's not fate that decides the purpose....but rather me having to find an objective and give meaning to my life. So which is it that I should believe in? Haha... logic and my common sense would tell me that I should decide how my life should be. What should I do.....visit the orphanage? old folks home? take yoga? I don't even know and quite frankly don't really have the interest to do so. It's not like i'm a bad person...It's just I'm not that kind >:) ~Karma of being unhelpful~

There's also another person who told me that the problem I am having is not having any problem. Thus, making me think too much and looking for trouble. Lolz. Now, that's logic!

One opinion that really hit me (very the sakit) was when he said I am simply lonely. I asked him why he said that and he said it's a conclusion from what I have been telling him. My first reaction to that was of course to deny it. But as I go down deeper, I thought that he may be right.

me: So what should I do la since u say i lonely?
he: Get attached la!!
me: *slaps* so easy meh??? gila!
he: aiya, u choosy only la....ah chu ah kau also can get la....
me: exactly, ah chu get ah kau ma....so left me lo...
he: haihya.....u know what i mean la...waste time!
me: U know i wont simply get ah chu ah kau one wat.... then u consider ur other half ah chu isit?
he: Dun talk crap ........Ok, now i know what u mean...
me: yeala....u blardy xing fu bugger!
he: come la i intro u new ppl....
me: dunwan....i look myself better....
he: sei yiu min!
me: of course...hehehe
he: hahahah........
me: haha.........*kayu mode activated*