Kuantan Kuantan, 4 months 4 months!

I'm freaking bored yoh..... I can't access to external websites with my company laptop and I don't have a personal one... Bleh.... luckily i still have my phone, and this is my first time blogging via E71...

Kuantan is fine ya'll..... It has everything I usually want in KL... Starbucks, all the fastfood chains (except Nandos),PDI, The Undershop wtf, Big Apple donuts.. Etc... You get the idea la... Went to Teluk Cempedak yesterday for the beach too... Quite nice but too hot.... Maybe go get suntan wtf...
and you'll see a damn dark black me.. :)

The one thing I don't have is friends here... Such a lonely fck... Hahhaha...Damn bored ler... dinner alone... Grocery shopping alone... All my colleagues here are married and commited to their families.... Sigh... Go out also just happy hour drink and get drunk.......

Now, I'm home blogging on a saturday night while watching Mortal Combat on TV2 super wtf.... Shaun you need a life..... 4 months.... 4 months....

ME and Hum Yee....

Tonight is my last night in Kl........ eh...... no............ only left a couple of hours in Kl before I leave for Kuantan to sell salted fish wtf. Sigh...... feeling a little homesick already even though I have not leave. This is the first time I'll be living alone independently, virgin wtf.

Have to focus on the positive points:

1. Can do whatever fck I want
2. Earn more money
3. May have an excuse to get a new laptop wtf
4. Can develop PR skills
5. Maybe forced to improve my cantonese and mandarin

Somehow still keep thinking of the negative points too:

1. Have to wash own clothes
2. Don't know how to iron clothes
3. Have to use own money for laundry wtf
4. Will have limited internet access sure die super wtf.
5. Maybe need to keep going to cyber cafes and waste money.
   
6. Rented room full of crocroaches
   
7. Hantu
8. I'M GONNA MISS THE FINALE OF THE TVB MOONLIGHT RESONANCE!!! Kun Ka Zai.. Yu So Chau...... supersigh!
   

Don't know why it's so much easier to state the negative points................................


Anyways since I'll have limited internet access there, so I won't blog as often d... hopefully I won't la... and Hopefully I can excel there.... wish me lucks yea.....

I MISS EVERYONE LA!

If it's not now, then when?

It's already 3 a.m but I still couldn't sleep. I promised myself to enjoy the last holiday or last unemployed night to the max. So I did... having dinner with ex-GE colleagues, watching animes, drinking coffee... all the simple things I cherish in life....

But somehow my mind is still at unease.... could it be problems I am facing now or the problems I bound to face in future? ......Am I thinking too much.... I always confide myself with the fact that God is fair and everyone has their share of problems..... I am aware of my permanent problem..... something I can never change, something I have to live with, something I have to endure through the rest of my life. The pressure from others, the negative remarks, the criticisms, the pretenders and the rejections. All I can do is to be who I am and hope for acceptance.

My family has always been the biggest part of my life. I'm no mamaboy but to me family is the definite priority. Just received news that my bro in Abu Dhabi encountered some problems. Although it will be solved, I could see the worry and pain in both my parents. Worried sick that they're here, but not able to do anything to help. .....I too can only witness this helplessly........

Had a long chat with mum too and she expressed her worries to me.... her frustration..... her aggravations..... All along I thought with she having an early retirement, she will enjoy the better half of life. But I can conclude the pressure she bears now is more than her working days. The worst part of it is the idea of not being able to do anything but to pray and hope for the best........ ....What is a son to do?

I am now venturing into the corporate world. Realizing the current situation, I vow to excel in life. Of course with the intention to enjoy better things in life, but the priority is to lighten the family's burden. ..... I must.... Hence, I have to be ambitious. I no longer can afford to settle for simplicity or to earn "just enough". Sacrifices are necessary.... I will have to work hard while I'm still young.... while I still have the strength..... while the problem still exists.... No point delaying or hoping for miracles to happen....

The problems are current. Actions have to be taken.

If it's not now, then when?